In the negatives
Food for some is a source of energy that is intuitively consumed when hungry. This is not the case for me and if your reading this i'm guessing not the case for you. Numbers consume my mind and i'm not referring to math. Calories, step counts, the number on the scale overcome my mind, in prisoning me by taking away any happiness i could experience . Even if this looks like blog about a 21 year old girl complaining about her eating disorder its not. This blog is going to take you through my journey of what works and doesn't work to love yourself again. For context, from grade 6 I have struggled with episodes of binge eating disorder and anorexia. I'm not going to discuss all the details that may or may not have lead to my eating disorder at least not now. But i will say that a year ago I reached my goal weight of 120 pounds. I had victoria secret model measurements 35-24-35, wore a size 24 jean and should have been happy right? WRONG. Which still d...